Friday, November 26, 2004

dreamer...

dream dying...
die.. dreaming...
have you ever dreamed about dying?..
i mean.. have you ever wished of dying
just to be with someone
you can't be with while you are alive?...
not yet... well.. i had.. i have been...
and i am dreaming bout it..
wanting it more than anything..
just this moment...
i want to die so my soul can reach you...
touch you without hesitations..
watch you sleep and dream bout being alive...
and free... while i..
watch you from the closest inch that i can be..
watch you breathe..
feel your breath as mine as i live within you....
stay...
stay as close as your heart...
as far as your mind can reach...
i love you with my every breath
with the breath i have lost..
breath i am to lose...
my breath as i go near my death...
trust me... i'm always with u..
hei... i made this poem just now... hope you guys reading liked it as much as i liked it myself.....:)

Sunday, November 21, 2004

almost wasted..

i'm not really sure about people's perception about "privacy".. because sumtyms they just butt in your life without your permission and mess up your once normally going life.. i can't understand why people love to make trashes
about each other.. you know what i mean?... cuz i dunno.. i mean you're trying to live a wonderfully and peacefully molded life... while them... they want to ruin you when you're trying to make a whole of yourself... those selfish bastards keep on making my life miserable.. broken.. repeatedly wasted.. damn......

nakakaasar ung ganun diba??!!... siguro ikaw din nman maaasar ka kapag ganun ang ginagawa sayo... un bang
tipong gusto mo na manahimik.. pero patuloy ka pa rin nilang ginugulo... patuloy pa rin silang gumagawa ng paraan para guluhin ang pilit mong pinagpapayapang buhay.... ano bang napapala nila sa mga bagay na ganun..? mga bagay na isang kahangalan lamang... nagdudulot lamang ito ng kaguluhan... sumisira ng buhay at nagwawasak ng kinabukasan...

siguro iniisip nio na bakit masyado akong nagagalit... nagagalit ako dahil 100% ang dahilan upang magalit... dahil
maging ikaw.. malamang ayaw mo na gawing isang malaking babasahin ang buhay mo....


Album: The Eminem Show (2002)Song: Hailie's Song
IntroYo
I can't sing…but
I feel like singing. I want to fuckin' sing…cuz I'm
happy…yea…I'm happy. I got
my baby back…yo…check it out...


Verse 1

Somedays I sit staring out the
window, watchin' this
world pass me by
Sometimes I think there's nothin' to live
for. I almost break down and cry.
Sometimes I think I'm crazy. I'm crazy, oh so crazy.
Why am I here? Am I just wasting my timeBut then I see my baby, suddenly
I'm not crazy. It all makes sense when I look into her eyes

Chorus
Cuz sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders.
Everyone's leaning on me
Cuz sometimes it feels like the world's almost over,
but then she comes back to me.

Verse 2

My baby girl keeps getting' older. I watch her grow up with
pride.People make jokes cuz they don't understand me, they just don't see my
real sideI act like shit don't phase me, inside it drives me crazy. My
insecurities could eat me alive

But then I see my baby, suddenly I'm not crazy.
It all
makes sense when I look in her eyes.


Verse 3

Man, if I could sing, I'd keep singin' this song to my
daughter. If I could hit the notes, I'd blow
something as long as my
fatherto show her how I feel about her. How proud I am
that I got her. God,
I'm a daddy, I'm so glad that her mom didn't *censored*
(want her)Now you
probably get this picture from my public persona that I'ma
pistol packin'
drug addict who bags on his mama.But I wanna to just take this
time out to
be perfectly honest, cuz there's a lot of shit I keep bottled that
hurts
deep insideof my soul. And just know that I grow colder the older I grow.
This boulder on my shoulder gets heavy and harder to hold,and this load is
like
the weight of the world, and I think my neck is breakin'. Should I just
give up
or try to live up to these expectations?Now look, I love my daughter
more than
life in itself, but I got a wife that's determined to make my life
livin' hell.
But I handle it well, given the circumstances I'm dealt. So
many chances, man,
it's too bad - could have had someone elseBut the years
that I've wasted is
nothing to the tears that I've tasted, so here's what
I'm facin'…3 felonies, 6
years of probation. I've went to jail for this
woman, I've been to bat for this
woman. I've taken bats to people's backs,
bent over backwards for this
woman.Man, I should have seen it coming. What
did I stick my penis up in?
Wouldn't have ripped the pre-nup up if I'da seen
what she was fuckin.'But fuck
it, it's over. There's no more reason to cry
no more. I got my baby, baby the
only lady that I adore(Hailie). So
sayonara, try tommorra, nice to know ya. Our
baby's traveled back to the
arms of her rightful owner.And suddenly it seems
like my shoulder blades
have just shifted. It's like the greatest gift you could
get. The weight has
been lifted.
Chorus


Outro

Told you I can't sing..Oh
well... I tried... Hailie,
remember when I said if you ever need anything, Daddy
would be right there?
Guess what? Daddy's here, and I ain't going nowhere, baby.
I love
you…(kiss)

Saturday, November 20, 2004

wasted....

sinayang ko ang oras ko sa paghihintay... tatlong araw akong nanabik na mahawakan ka... bakit ganun.... pinaasa lang nila ako!!... walang hiya... kung alam nio lang kung gano ko tiniis ung mga gabing malamig na wala akong ginagawa kundi ang mahiga at maghintay ng umaga sa napakalawak kong kama... nakakaasar talaga... kung bakit kasi sa lahat ng cellphone akin pa ang dapat na masira.... hmm.... bwisit talaga... miss ko na sya... alam ko hindi ako dapat na maging dependent sa kanya pero hindi ko na pala kaya na wala siya... parang... kulang... kulang kapag wala akong natetext... lalo na kapag gabi... nakakapanibago... wala akong nababasa na nagpapatulog sa kin... at ung mga nanggigising sa akin pag umaga.. kelan ka ba babalik?.... kung sa palagay mo... walang kwenta ang mga pinagsasasabi ko... mali ka... dahil lahat ng ito mahalaga... bwat mensaheng natatanggap ko sa kagamitang iyon... itinatago ko sa puso ko iyon... kaya kung wala kang pakialam.. ako meron!!>... ayoko na sanang isipin yon kasi mali... pero iniisip ko pa rin... kahit na sa inyong lahat walang katuturan ang mga pinagsasasabi ko... alam ko dahil walang nagpapahalaga sa kin.... pero wala kayong magagawa... sasabihin ko lahat lahat... nangungulila ako sa isang taong hindi ko dapat isipin dahil wala akong karapatan.. isang taong bumubuo sa buhay ko kahit na ako... ako.. kahit na madaming bagay ang magulo sa akin... siya ang tanging bagay na maayos na dumating sa kin... at kung mawawala pa siya gaya ng teleponong iyon... na hindi ko kinaya.... baka lalo ko pang hindi kayanin pag nawala pa siya sa kin... kaya.. waa kayong magagawa... siya lang ang kaligayahan ko kahit na dahil sa kanya... nalulungkot ako... nalulungkot ako kasi di ko masabi na siya ang buhay ko............. dahil... masasayang lang ang lahat ng mga binuo namin...... sayang....